Crazy Few Months

Its been awhile since my last post so i guess i better update this and let everyone know how its going. Crazy how life sometimes like it goes by so slow but when you look back at it just cruises right on by. So Sometime in October i moved into Kalispell and now live with my sister and Casey. Its been great and i really appreciate them for wanting me to be here and all the fun we have. I think it works cause we are all so close and have so much fun together.

Work has been nuts i was getting promoted than not and back and forth lol my bro got promoted so im happy for that. Hopefully May will roll around and i can go do the forest thing. Work has been nuts with all the holiday shoppers. Black friday is always crazy and did all my holiday shopping under 150 bucks so im pretty stoked about that!

Looking forward to lots of ice fishing lots of gaming and hopefully snowmobiling this winter if we can get em fixed. I have not been myself think just do to stress and the time of year it seems to bring the stress with it for some reason lol. But that is life and just got to roll with the punches. But just figured i would give a quik update cause i must go to bed tomorrow is the first day of ice fishing Do Work!

Recap!

Well it has been a very busy couple months and nearly two months since i last blogged. Seems like life can just take over sometimes and you dont have time for the little things that you once did. September was crazy and felt very Hectic. I was moved to cash office at target and had been training in that new position along with new roles and responsibilities with in the store. It was a little unnerving at first but after i got a grasp of the new skill i was learning i feel confident and not to worried anymore. Just one more step to making myself more valuable to my job.

October well started out rough. My Uncle Chris was killed in a car accident on October 4th. It was very draining and hard to handle. He was one of my two uncles that i really cared for and really knew. I have been having a hard time sleeping cause i think about him so much at night. On the 7th i flew out to Washington State to be the best man in a good friends wedding. Was a nice little ceremony which i think they should be family and friends. It was in Elbe Washington in a little white chapel a historic 100 + year old chapel.

After the wedding i went and stayed with my dad and his wife. It was really good to see them i really enjoyed it. We went to the high school football game and my dad is a coach so i was on the sidelines. It brought back a ton of memories from as far back as i can remember. Helping my dad with what he needed to do and just watching and feeling the joy of football but also had so many other feelings. I dont think i could have asked for a better trip the football game was perfect and i really needed it. Was so good to be back on the field and around that atmosphere. Was so amazing being out there with my dad i dont think i can tell you really how i felt. But it was amazing and i loved it. Its the little moments in life that all come back and connect that matter.

All in all this is my life and i am living it to the best of my abilities. I find each day i love my family more and more everyday. I dont know what i would do with out them. I truly have started to appreciate the meaning of family. I have had a strong feeling in my life that has me to start persuing a stronger relationship with god. I finally feel like i am at a point in my life where i know i need him and want him in my life. So when my sis moves up this weekend i will hopefully be able to start going to church with them. But just loving life!

Remembering Grandma Abney

Well today marks the six year anniversary of my grandmas passing. I thought it would be good to remember her or talk about her since she has been on my mind. Grandma Abney well what can i say? She was a tiny women who gave birth to my aunt, my father and uncle. She left this world to and returned to heaven on August 18th 2003, brittany's b-day. Sorry for britt bad things always happen on her b-day but they will get better.

She was an amazing women, she was very strong willed and could be very stubborn but you would have to be if you knew my grandpa. Growing up i never really felt close to my dad's parents but they were always around i guess i felt that way because we did not get the materialistic thing from them that you want as a kid. Growing up and seeing how things were and what i did and what i could have done differently come at the speed of light. I seem to think about everything now days and try to better myself from these expiriences. Tonight i was thinking about her. And what we had been through together and as a family.

In my teens in highschool i lived with her, Well my sister Brittany and I. I will be the first to tell you i was a pain in the ass. I can see myself as a unapprciative punk teenager and know that i was not easy to deal with. I remember being so angry that she made me go to school on several occasions when i was sick and puking all night. But i realize now it was because she was trying to get me to toughen up and be the man that she wanted me to be. The pain or sickness was nothing remotely close to what she had endured or was enduring at that time. She was very very sick and i was so angry about everything in life. If i could tell her today i would tell her thanks. She played a big part in bringing me up even though i did not see it at the time. She took me to church kept food on the table and made sure i was taken care of all just because i wanted to play football in washington.

She sacraficed alot for me and over the years that has become clearer. I wish i would have appreciated it more than as i do now. But i guess thats all in part of growing up and becoming a man. I dont ever really remember or recall her ever saying i love you to me as a kid. I am sure she did but i never paid attention to that stuff like i do now. I remember her playing piano for my dad in the "White Room" and i always enjoyed that they would sing and she played it so beautifully. She was very musically talented. And was an amazing cook.

I was not there for her funeral but i did get to see her before she passed. We had a family reunion for her like she always wanted. I really think we need to have one again in her honor. Family is important and Family was a huge importance to her. I remember seeing her on that bed and my dad says Garrett is here... and she started to cry. It was the first time i had really seen her show any emotion and it made my heart sink. I wished on my life that i could have done something for her but it was just her time to leave us. I held her hand and she said she was proud of me. I remember telling her i love her for what i think was probably my first time and giving her a kiss on the forehead. I watched the tears stream down her face. I never showed it much when i was lil or when i was a teenager but i loved that women. She was family and had done so much for me and it was so hard to see her in that state.

I remember living in utah and finding out she was sick and going to my room and crying and praying for her to live a long life that we needed her. And she lived for many years after that. I feel like that prayer was answered but at that time it was her place to go back and be with our father in heaven. I wish she could be around to see me have kids and to see me grow as a man. But i know she is watching down on me from heaven. The people i have lost close to me i still feel stronger and stronger everyday like they are helping me push and pave my way to becoming the man that i need to be. Grandma was a beautiful loving women and i miss her so much and wish i could tell her thank you for everything.

I just want to say that every passing day i appreciate my family more and more.... Its amazing how important family is cause its the only real thing you have in this life. Dont hide the feelings let your family know you love them because everyone deserves to hear that. My family is all over the place but plays a very pivotal part in my life even if we dont get to see or talk as much as we should or need to. I love you grandma, you will live forever in all our hearts and memories.

25 years

On August 6th 1984 at 10:31 p.m. Is when i physically started changing lives here on earth! And i have not looked back since been doing work since i was just a lil chap running around in aqua socks, parachute pants and a mullet. Simply because thats how i roll. Just kidding! Twenty five years i have been living this life and every passing day i become even more greatful for the next. This life could end at any moment and if that were to ever happen i want to go out with people having a smile on there face.

I was blessed with a great family sure it has not been perfect not even close but its my family and thats why its so special. I was blessed with a loving mother and father. Two blood sisters and a blood brother. And two half sisters. I have had amazing grandparents and so many great memories. From all of these people i have learned varoius things about life and just morals and what not over the years. A few things i believe in and pride myself on is working hard, always being respectful, always be honest... and so on.

When i moved to montana June 16th 2008 i had no clue what i was doing. Nor did i really even care. But when i sat and thought about what i was doing i realized i was looking for me and that is exactly what i have done. I first had to forgive the people and things that made my teenage and more recent years a living hell. I had so many feelings to try and fish out and i slowly did, instead of looking at them negatively i looked at them in a positive light and tried to figure out what i could have done different and learn from it. It really helped and i feel like over the last year i have done as much as possible to move on to a life that i have always dreamed of.

I believe you cant let your past determine your future. I know that my past will only make me stronger and will never hold me back again from the things that i desire most. I am in such a great place and could not be happier with the love and support i have always recieved from my family w/o them i truly would not be who i am today. I have made a few goals for the future and those will come in time. For now I am 25 and loving life. I know there will be more stuggles along the way. I also know i will be learning till the day i die. And i hope i can remember the next 25 as well as i can the last 25. This is the next chapter in my life....

Something for her

Building a foundation for something great
Someone like you doesn't come along everyday
Give it time and let yourself heal
I will be there with you every step of the way
I wont guide you or push you or even lead you astray
Only walk with you and help you find your way
Cause someone like you is well worth the wait
I will always be there at the end of each day

More than just a game

Football is something i hold dear to my heart. Alot of people see it nothing more than just a bunch of over hyped meat heads beating on each other. Sure thats probably one of the funnest things about the game. But there is so much more to it, The pagentry that surrounds the game. The time and dedication all the preperation that goes into it. The art of the plays and the Intelligence it takes to memorize the play book from front to back, And how to read coverages. And last but not least the commrodarie, passion and brotherhood of being a football player, past and present.

I can remember nearly every single play of every single game that i was apart of. The big hits, huge runs, and the mistakes. I can visualize what i did wrong on a play and what i could have done to not let it happen again. I remember before my first high school game coach Ernest King asked me in pre- game warm ups ... are you ready? I told him i had been ready for this my whole life. All i ever wanted to do growing up was play in the NFL but than again who hadnt when they were just a boy running around in the back yard, pretending they were the great Emmitt Smith, Dan Marino and the list could go on and on. Some of the greatest things i love about football is the sound of the cleats on the pavement, The lights and the National Anthem before a game. The nerves that were in your stomech hours before a game. By games end you got to see what all your hard work was for and why you play that game you love.

Football has brought a great deal of passion to me and my life. Football isn't just a game its a stepping stone to prepare you for life. It helps you build character. It helps you for taking extreme critiquing about your every move. It helps you learn how to work as a team and how to fight for something you want and be passionate about it. Anyone who has ever strapped on a helmet can understand how it helped them shape them into who they are.

Life is full of ups and downs. Some times you will make a big play and score a touchdown or you can get a turn over and change the pace of your life and take control of whats right in front of you. If you are passionate about something and believe in it you can achieve anything. You can be down on in the trenches in the pouring rain but if you put your heart into it and give it 110% no matter what the outcome is you can say i tried my best and laid it all out there on the field.

There were many times when i wanted to quit football. But my dad would always push me and i hated it. But after a long nights talk the next practice i would go out and tear up people on the field and gain my confidence again. I will never say that i did not need that push, because sometimes in life thats exactly what we need is to have a fire lit under our ass. The great game of football has tought me so much about myself and how to work hard for everything i have. How to be passionate about things that i care about and to always dream big. This life is to short to live with a loss from last week its in the past now its time to prepare for the next big thing that we have infront of us. #44

One Year

Well figure i better get to this now or i wont get to it at all. June 16th 2009 wont mean alot to alot of people. But for me its a anniversary, It marks one year that i made the choice to sell all my belongings and load a suit case with my clothes and take a plane to live in Montana. This was one of the easiest decisions i ever made in my life. I was depressed one year ago. Very depressed a very angry and bitter person about life and what it had dealt me. I was doing things i should not be doing and hanging with people who i should not have been.

I did not want to be angry anymore I wanted to forgive the ones who had done me wrong i wanted to change my life. I had goals for myself that would never be obtainable in the position i had put myself in. I had a list of things i wanted to do. I wanted to move to the country, I wanted to start over and move closer to my roots i wanted to shoot for my dreams that i had always wanted and that i was letting slip away. My dad used to have a few sayings he said over and over to his football players and well of course me. He would always say "If you believe it you can achieve it" and "If you think you can you can, If you think you cant your RIGHT" For the first time in my life i wanted to do something for me and find myself. I knew i could and i knew exactly how to do it and what i wanted.

I can say that i have found myself. I can also say i have never been happier. I have also become a man. I did it on my own terms and had the people around me to help me achieve what i wanted over the last year. They listened to me and my feelings and gave me guidance and ideas. And i am better for it. When i moved here i also made a vow to myself i would be single for one year... Accomplished! I also wrote off sex for one year.... Accomplished! To be honest i thought both of those would be hard and ended up being pretty easy. It helped me grow in ways that i cant explain but it helped me with my self confidence. It also helped me gain my pride back and that i set out to do something and accomplished it. I wanted to move up in target my first job in montana since moving here. I also accomplished that sure i didnt get the first promotion i went for but I did move up and have more opportunities in the future.

Over the last year i can see how much i have grown. How much i have matured and how i have became a better man and have a good head on my shoulders. I still have more goals and dreams for the future. I believe that if you set your mind to having a positive attitude you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. I have tried to be nothing more than positive this last year and it has done me wonders. I try to look at every misfortune as an opportunity to bring me strength and learn from the expirience. Some of the goals i have for the future are to pay off my debts which i have recently been working really hard on. In the next five years i would like to get married and start a family. I know what i do today can make a better life for my family in the future. Having a family has been a dream of mine since i was just a child. I would like to continue to work hard and move my way up the corporate ladder at Target. I know to go as high as i can there i will need a degree. Which is something i may persue in the future. I would also like to possibly try stand up comedy. Cause i mean who else walks around with the whistling smile and the smile farts other than this guy.

The future is unwritten and I look forward to the experiences that will let me fill in those pages. I have a new attitude about life. I love it! I love my family and my true friends. I have done it and you guys all helped me out along the way. I really could not have done it with out you guys. This is the only life you get and a year ago i decided i wanted to live a great one. And that is what i am going to do. Life is to short to dwell on the past. I have learned to persever and become a stronger person. With out any of the experiences i have gone through i would not be who i am today. I may say my misfortunes but in reality they are opportunities, And for that i am a better person. So to those who will listen live this life to the fullest. Cause we only get this one shot. I will end this on a quote that i live my life by. I found it right after i moved to Montana. "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today" James Dean

The smile farts

Have you ever wondered why chubby people smile so much? Well that being if they are hip and know fashion because angry chubby people are bad news. Its because they are built like woopy cushions and have what is called the smile farts. I know this because i was diagnosed with this in 2004. For many years i have suffered with trying not to smile because one i will pass gas and the other is i have gapped teeth and when i smile and walk it ends up whistling like a hot tea kettle.

Recently lester one of my sisters has found it funny to poke me in my belly button. Another bad idea for several reasons.... 1. I keep a baby badger in my button for protection. 2. it hurts. 3 its possible for self combustion 4. Gas is more than likely to pass upon the simple belly poke. 5. plain and simple may lose some appendages.

Luckily all that happened was number 4. But un lucky for casey he is now covered in ace bandage and neosporin. This story has changed many lives and has done bad things to good people so please dont poke the chubby people.

Other rules you may want to follow if your not used to being around chubby people..
1. Never talk about food unless you want to become food your self. 2. never try to steal a fat mans food .. your arm maybe become the meal. 3. If you see a bald man with a chin strap and whistling teeth and the smile farts please do not offer food... same apply's to bears with this guy ... he may just eat you!

The Book

The days change as quick as the turn of a page. Lifes a book and its up to you write the chapter of a new day. You can take the comfortable way or the path less traveled. Fill the pages with the knowledge of the roads you have traveled. Becoming stronger from the things you have learned. Noticing your misfortunes and turning them into something great, only you have the power to change your dreams of yesterday.

Cabin Days

Well this weekend i headed out to the cabin for what is called memorial day weekend. But i work monday and chris had to come back early sunday so i only stayed till sunday morning :( The day started off a lil wierd on friday... casey and lester had stuff to do and i was told that we were leaving late that evening. but instead we left at noon. This didnt go well because i needed to check my balance and get some of my favorite chaw for fishing! But i did not get my chaw very say and yes i cried. So i was kind of in a grumpy mood and went and bought my self some Mountain Dew cause it makes everything better.

Casey wanted to go out in the boat ( the tin boat) and i do not like this boat lol. So he said get in the front and i was like ugh no it will tip and he said no it wont. I get in the front and say its going to tip and what happens.... It TIPS! he laughs his ass off. I am latching onto the dock with one hand and rack my knee on the side of the boat. Than a few minutes later after checking if my celly still worked i tried to put it back into my pocket and i miss and it falls off the dock and into the lake! So we will just say friday was not my day.

Saturday was a blast casey , alyssa, and me got the dock into the water with ease. And than we began our fishing and sun bathing or as i like to call me whale watching. Chris showed up around noon and we did alot of fishing. We all went out in the boat which of coarse i did not enjoy. Casey caught a fish the night before but this night was mine. Casey tells me hey look heres one and he over casts..... And i say watch this and two jigs later BOOOOM! i hooked em and brought him in. Casey went flying to grab the net and burned his knee sliding onto the dock. It was a 3 pound 20 inch rainbow. He was spraying sperm all over he got it on elsie's head caseys face, and my face.

I gutted it and brought it back to my mom for cooking. That night we went up to the lodge listened to live music had a few shots and drinks went back to the cabin had a bon fire and had a few more drinks. Everyone else watched step up 2 while i do what i do pass out lol. It was a great weekend and i always love being out there and seeing everyone. I cant wait to do it again.

Paintball Gallore

So Two weeks ago when my Mum, Casey and I ventured to Utah we went paintballing for his B-day. He was soooo incredibly stoked and i litterally wanted to shit my pants cause of the sound of the paintballs hitting the walls and bunkers. I was also a lil nervous because when i was in 9th grade i went and what happened? The first time i got hit was a direct hit to the what i like to call the genti's! Not so pleasant it was also november and the balls were freezing. The next i went was in 2003 in a field behind my old bro- in laws house. I was wearing full carhart bibs, jeans and long johns.... i got shot on the inner thigh and that also left a bad bruise lol.

This time it was indoors and a shit ton of fun let me tell you. Bet you have never seen a chubby man thats out of shape running and leaping like a gazelle being chased. I was ducking i was diving i was also weazing and the young guys there were looking at me funy. Probably cause i could not speak and was gasping for air. Fist time i got shot was in the left shoulder area... the next the left middle finger, then the mask which doesnt hurt at all :P And than one game in the boob and another in the boob chest and leg. And none of them popped on that one but it was like 3 on 1 so i just called myself out. No need for extra punishment on me. I had a blast the shots that hurt the worst was the middle finger and the boob. I got shot when i had slid and slid to far and out of the bunker and boom right on the right moob (man boob). I grabbed it like you would have thought i had actually been shot lol. Casey enjoyed watching the chubby man run. But i DID WORK and tore some people up i was always one of the last people left in the game.

They had a chrono our markers at 270 which we were shooting at 270 feet per second. But i had a blast and cant wait to do it again. I think i found one of my new favorite sports and cant wait till i can get all the new paintball gear. But here are some pics of that day. No action pics cause the net they had up wouldnt let u get it a pic they all came out really dark. And sorry one of them is sideways lol.

Scars

The scars i carry are my souveniers from the past,
Reminding me where i was, and who I am
Coming into my own and doing it my way
I can feel the strength that i have gained from my short comings in the past
I wont forget because it will keep me on my path
Its just a simple reminder to always push forward and never look back.

Salty Puddle Quik Trip

Well i am finally back. About a week or so ago i helped move casey back from ronan we had a good time. Moving heavy stuff with me is never easy the reason being i make people laugh and shit tends to drop. And since i am generally the one going backwards down the stairs i tend to end up squished or dropping the stuff myself. So we got him back to Kalispell and than last friday casey, my mom and i took off for utah to move alyssa back and watch her college graduation.

We went paintballing for casey's b-day on saturday which was fun as hell but i was scared shitless until i saw how many pre-teenagers were there getting pellted as well and told my self to man up you pussy! I did pretty good and even was running around sweating horribly and sounded like a screaming midget when i was weazing for air. I got shot in my Moob.... Man Boob. That left a pretty nasty mark on my body. Than we loaded up and headed to loagan and visited with my sisters family. And sunday morning left for montana. It was a fast trip and fun i didnt get to see all the people i would have liked to. so hopefully take another trip sometime in the near future and see the rest of my friends. i am glad lester is home and now we just have to work on getting brittany and danny here :P

Change is in the air...... or its just me O_o

Well well well..... In less than one week i start my new position at target! Should be fun and a change of scenery. I have been moved to the planogram team. From what i have done from it so far i know they set all the isles and tags and what not. I am sure there is more to it but for now thats what i know. Danielle the ETL pulled me into the office and offered me the position. She said it would help with my development towards being a team lead one of these days. Some time in the near future we will be sitting down and finding out what my strengths are ..... i have already came up with a list. So here ar some of my strengths.... 1. Sweat and weez after peeling an orange. 2. Can pass gas pretty much on command. 3. Always smiling because im chubby and its the only look that works for me. 4. Some what resemble a very hairy jake gyllenhaal 5. Always can tell when im around cause of the gap in my teeth whistling when i walk. Now for my stuff that needs work. 1. Sharting sends me home early almost everyday. 2. If i dont have my contacts or glasses i look crosseyed. 3. Belly jiggles when laughing.... I am always laughing. 4. The air around me is never pleasant. 5. Hands often cramp from having no dexterity.

Now that i have created a numerous amount of run on sentences and bunched up paragraphs i will leave u with a beautiful picure than of what else me!!!!!

Restless

I wrote this poem about me, life and a close friend. My brother and i have recently been working on putting it into music. We have the first paragraph done and still need to work on the rest. He plays the guitar and sings to it and I just sing to it because i have no dexterity aka ogre hands! So it may not be perfect but it came from the heart but i think that is what is best when writing.

restless at night you wander my mind
I wonder what your doing and where you've been
I made a choice long ago that changed my life
For many years i wandered alone
With out you my dear friend.

Never paid much attention to anyone but myself
I had to become a man before i ventured to anything else
So i searched through my soul dug to depths of things i didnt want to let go.
I found the man i am supposed to be. Following the foot steps that my grandfather laid before me.

Enduring pain is what i've done. Growing to new strengths of understanding, why things are not the way that it once was.

I watch you struggle, wish i could do more.
I'll be here for you, you wont lose that again.
I was once so vain but i'll make it right this time.
I'll be a better friend than i ever was before.

Good bye My beautiful hair

This last month i came to the realization that i am balding. Balding very very fast. Not in the back or the middle of my head. Yes right up front i have what they call widows peaks! Thats all i though but i also purchased a web cam to talk to my sister and her family and some friends. I bent over in the web cam and saw the top of my head and nearly crapped my pants... i may have i dunno. The hairdo i had going on is what i like to call the Island its where u have just a patch of hair in the front. My step father sports this look and you know as much as i like him i dont want to sport his look.

On top of this i am graying very very fast as well. I tried for weeks to get my mother to tell me i was balding all i could get out of her was, well there is more on this side than the other. My friends had no problem telling me i was balding. After seeing my hair in the web cam i decided to get rid of what i was losing and move on with life. Almost 25 and going through a mid life crisis ha ha but i have no money so i will not be buying a very nice car. So now i hope i can get enough money to pay for a gym and start juicing and hopefully end up looking like Vin Diesel or Jason Statham. Because they sport the baldness and look good doing it. So for my hair that i used to love so much good bye! So enjoy the pictures of me with my new look cause this is what i will look like forever!

To the new and unknown...

Well it has been a bit since my last post so figured id write a lil bit. Now three months into the new year and i still have what i think is a great attitude. Besides my tons of thousands of debt. I am very stoked for summer, i am jumping out of my skin for it and this weather keeps teasing me. So nice one day snow is melting and the next day 8 inches of snow.

I am going to keep very busy this summer and going to try and live it up to the fullest. I am planning on being out almost everyday wether it be my favorite thing to do fishing, or hiking, camping, going out to the cabin to boat and have fun or to hungry horse to enjoy all the stuff they have out there. Possibly try to travel and see a few friends. I always tried to grow up really fast and settle down. Now i am just taking time for me and going to live it how i want to live it. Despite all that is going on in the world and how much stuff i have been through i want the most that this live has to offer.

Every day my family becomes more and more important to me. I love them all so much and am so proud of every last one of them. The more i think of who i want to be the more i think of my grandpa. This year will be 5 years that he has been gone. Even though he is not here i feel him every time i think of him. He showed me what it was to work hard and be honest and respectful of others. I watched my grandfather for so many years and never knew how much he meant to me and how much he tought me from a young age. I believe he left those foot steps for all of us to walk in. Every day i try my best to become the person i want to be. I want to make him proud and my family proud.

I know britt will tell me not to write stuff like this cause it makes her cry lol i just have that affect. But my family is my world and wouldnt be who i am and where i am with out them so thanks for always sticking by me and helping me through the rough times.

Alternator vs Aaron and Garrett

Yesterday i had the joy of my life.... yes taking out the alternator. What a joy tucked down in the engine underneath the battery. My buddy and i didnt know we were setting out on a 2 1/2 hour battle with steel, metal, and a fan. Getting the battery out was no problem but i think to appreciate this you have to know that the car was outside prior and me being the genius i am did not brush any of the snow off the jeep.

I am a person who dresses for occasions and my attire was great this day... and no i was not in just my loin cloth. I wore a brim, a sweatshirt, basketball shorts and shoes oh and socks the socks are important cause when i was putting those on out of know where i get a jolt. Because aaron was kind enough to put on one boxing glove and punch me in my spine! who does that i was like wtf you made me bite my tongue. And i wanted to destroy him but i didnt cause his women would have killed me.

So since it was my jeep i was the one going under the jeep to shove my fat, stubby, no dexterity hands up into little cracks. yes there was lots of this hand cramping and lots of wierd groans and cussing coming from me besides the laughing. The fan blade was in the way and cutting up my knuckles and hands. I did not know what was dripping on me and yes it was the melted snow what a joy. It dripped in and around my mouth, In and around my eyes. All over this beautiful face that only my mother could love.

Eventually we got it out i had to crawl back under for the one hundredth time and let me tell you its not a pretty site its like watching a fat kid try to fit through a doggy door. But i pressed up and aaron pulled and wam the stupid thing came out. I grabbed it raised it over my head and did my pattented wooky call. Aaron says it was his brute strength but i still say hes a pussy i was the one pushing :P

Wa Wa Wa .... Great Success

Well its 5:30 in the morning and what is better to do than blog at this time. Well i can think of a few but we will keep this clean. The other day well to be honest this happens often. Someone said Garrett if i could be as happy as you everyday i would be..... but you probably take something to be this happy all the time.

Here is the fact I do not take any herbal supplements that you must smoke through a glass bottle or pipe. I also like to call it the devils cabbage. And i have to tell these people no i take nothing i am just weird i am sorry. Yes i often do my chewbacca call, talk about taints and pass gas about every 3.4 seconds. I mean but come on if you could do that to you would be as happy as me. The lady said ur always smiling and yes i am i am chubby its the only look that works for me.... besides thefact that i have gapped teeth and enjoy the feel and sound of air passing through my teeth.

Its like catching a nice sea breeze ya know. Than i told her ma'am here are my stats... i am single, live in my moms basement, i snore like a bear when i sleep, i fart way to much in my sleep, i have premature yes its coming..... balding and greying. what did you think i was going to say sheesh. And i am 6'1 and 247lbs and i am weezing and sweating still 10 mins after peeling an orange.

But to be seriouse for a second lol its nice that people recognize i am a very happy person cause for along time i wasnt. And it just proves to me that making the decision i did to move here was right for me. I couldnt be happier with my decision. Things are going really well here i just got picked as the Great Team Hero of the month at Target so yes my face gets to be framed lucky me haha. I am guessing its like there version of employee of the month. But i think its really cool i was selected. I was also selected as a top 3 performer for last month.

I will let yall know whats going on i am going to buy a new comp with my tax returns so will be back in business soon.

Sorry Yall

Hey just wanted tolet everyone know that i did not fall off the face of the earth or anything. Back in december before i headed to a very pricey trip to washington, my computer decided to delete its hard drive. So i am trying to buy a computer from a friend and hopefully be back in the business of blogging soon.

As far as whats going on.... not a whole lot i am just laying low and just trying to do work ya know :P Its been really cold here and a week or so ago we had our power go out from an underground line blowing up. So we had no power for a whole day and no phone cause they messed that up for like 3 days. Chris and i had gone to visit with my uncle that night and couldnt get back home cause they had blocked the road with heavy equpiment. We had to park down the road and walk and it was like -10 that night and i think i forgot to say we went to my grannymas in our pj's i was wearing a hoodie shorts and slippers and chris was in pj pants slippers and a zip up. Needless to say we couldnt stop laughing and by the time we got home our feet hurt so bad and were swollen and purple i actually had to rub the feeling and heat back into my feet. And the snow was hard and cut my shins up so i was bleeding lol it was pretty crappy but i wont ever forget it.

The Decision...

Over the last several days or weeks i guess i can say now i have been thinking alot. I have been looking over options and what things might appeal to me for my future. Back in may of last year i made a promise to myself to be honest with myself and to do things for me, Not to let other people be the deciding factor in stuff that i do or why i do them. I have had several opportunities present them self to me in washington, utah, alaska.... and the miltary.

For years i have wanted to do something meaningful with my life, i have finally made the steps to find myself with my move to montana and now its time to give my life some direction. One day i would like to have a family and what not so i would like a career and i feel for me the best way to do that is through the military.

Its crazy that it took meeting someone who is living there dream and loving it to get me to want to get off my butt and live one of mine. Even though we hardly talk now id just like to thank her for the motivation, i needed it. I feel like the decisions i made to move here and now to join the military, i am am finally following my heart. The goal is to lose 20 lbs by atleast march and than head out for basic. But just figured id let you all knows whats going on in the life of Garrett.

2009

Well a brand new year for all of us, how many of us stuck to our resolutions? I think i did ok i could have done better but i did manage to lose 40 of my 100 lbs that i wanted to lose so i am pretty happy about that. This year i have made a resolution with Kendall to lose 20 lbs so hopefully the choices in a career i make this year will help me get there.

My new years was pretty good I have been in washington since december 26th and will be here till the 4th. We met up with some of Kendall's friends and drove up to seattle around 5 p.m. We stayed at the sixth avenue inn up in seattle and i didnt smell it but some people said it smelled like urine but who knows lol.

Kendall was a few drinks up on everyone cause she decided not to waste time and get to it. We ended up playing a drinking game called kings which was pretty fun i guess your normally supposed to drink it with beer not hard A lol so by the time we got done doing that and started getting ready we were all feeling pretty good.

We got a taxi and went to a club i have no clue what the name was but it was alot of fun. And yes some how Kendall got me to dance dont ask me how but she did. That really is like once in a life time thing. But it was alot of fun. The walk home was intersting just cause of some drama that was going on with people but besides having to pee super bad and and it raining it was alot of fun.

Not really sure what time it was when we all atempted to try and sleep. But ryan ripped one of the longest and loudest farts i have ever heard i would have been proud to call it my own. All in all it was really fun. I am really glad who i got to spend it with she is an amazing person and just knowing her is pushing me to better myself. And i am really glad i decided to come and see her.