New Start

Finally ... i made my move to montana, my house sold in washington. So now i can move on with my life and start what i intended on doing bettering myself and moving to a place were i didn't really know anyone. Where i could just have a fresh start pay off my bills and just live life. I have already made a ton of new friends and life just keeps getting better. The sale of my house was huge so much stress and pressure lifted off my back. This weekend my bro and I are headed to my sister's boyfriend's cabin out on McGregor lake. I have had a lot of good times out there and its just so relaxing being able to fish off the dock, chop wood and just sit back have a beer and look at the lake with the amazing view of the mountains. I am still working over nights at target it has been kind of rough for hours but all the christmas stuff should start piling in and than i will always be at work haha so just have to wait it out a lil while longer. May look for something different because i kind of want regular days again but for now its fine. This is a picture of what it looks like from the deck of the cabin but it really doesnt do it justice. but just thought i would share it with yall.

Life..Life and Life

Life is so crazy even when you live out in the sticks life seems to still be stressful and annoying. Its weird how at the time and point in your life something may consume you but in the end it all passes and you just look back at it and might say well that sucked lol. Life is always changing for better or for worse. I keep wondering if there are still honest people out there. I am sure there are but for some reason i keep running into people who say they are honest and than when it comes down to it they just are not. Or you try to trust some one over and over again but still when they get the chance to redeem them selves they just do the same old stuff they have always done. But in good news my house should be selling and it will be done and gone than i can get back to focusing on me and paying off my debt. I really have the perfect opportunity to take advantage of i am living at home for free and i work... so hopefully i can just continue to pay on my debts cause i have a ton of it and once that is done hopefully be able to provide for myself and move on to the next stage in my life whatever that maybe. I really like where i am at in kalispell montana. Its so nice to be around my mom, brother and grandma. Since i spent most of my adolesence with my father. I love the country and just the everyday beauty that i get to see wether i am just going outside or going to town. I get to see all sorts of wild life and i can drive a lil ways up the mountain we live on and watch the sunset over the valley which is full with green trees. Moving here has put at the most peace i have been in a long time. I know life can get hectic and crazy but everytime i am i just take a step outside and breathe it all in and realize with time all things pass and that i can push through anything. And specially when i have my family by myside.

Like a Candle

I wrote this poem back in 10th or 11th grade and it was entered into a contest on poetry.com. It made it to the semi finals and was published in one of there books a little while after just figured i would share it.

Like A Candle

So young and yet so fragile

How can i feel like were a burning candle.

Like a candle flame we start out hot but

with time were not.

As with each drop of wax is like a day of

love that drips away with every hug.

Who would have known in three months you

would be gone the flame still there but the

wax is gone.

Bye bye stress

Yesterday i got news that my mobile home i own will be selling. so i am pretty excited about that, it will be nice to finally get it sold so i dont have to shell out money every paycheck for no one to live in it. Crazy thing is that i was so stressed out about it i decided to throw out a silent e-mail to the big guy up stairs about two days before it sold to just get this thing off my hands so i wont have to leave montana. So i thought that was pretty cool. It really is pretty crazy how everything always seems to play out the way it was meant to. I have been trying to sell this place since march or april and had one guy say he was going to buy it made us jump through all sorts of hoops for him and than backed out. SO for the last two months i have been pulling my hair out and just trying to figure out how to get it to sale. I will be glad when it is all done and official. But i have to thank Tarin for taking care of it and handling all the calls and dealing with the stress of it all i know it could not have been easy but i really appreciate all the time, work, money and effort she has put into getting this place sold. So thanks T.

Simply Me

My sis has been hounding me to put a picture up that you can actually see of me... so here it is. I figured i could also tell you a lil about myself. I am a 6'1 massive man, sculpted like a greek god and walk around in only loin clothes on the weekdays! Ok not really.... i am not a greek god but i should be. I will be seriouse for a moment. I grew up all over you can read my profile for that info. My parents divorced just after my 13th b-day. I stayed with my dad and his new wife and my sister brittany in utah. From 13-18 were some of the hardest years of my life . The only good thing is that that whole expirience made me a better person. When i was 19 i got married and that lasted about 3 years. June 16th, 2008 i moved to Montana. I wanted to get away from the big city and return to my country boy roots that i loved so much when i was growing up as a yound child. So that brings us to now. I am on a self searching mission, I want to be the best person i can possibly be. So when i do finally meet that special someone I can treat them the way they deserve to be treated. I would like to settle down and have a nice lil family. But till than ...... I will continue to party like a rock star! not really :P

A day of fishing

So a few weeks ago i went fishing with my step-dad John. We decided to go to Ashley lake which is soooo incredibly beautiful and peaceful. The water is greenish blue just like the ocean. It was a good get away just to relax and have no worries on your mind. John was the fortunate one this day and caught two fish..... i caught none. He caught a pink salmon and ugh well this beauty that your looking at. Not to sure what it is but we just call it the sucker fish. When we saw it coming in close to the boat we were very excited because it was big. When we finally settled down from the catch and wanted to know what the hell it was, we both kind of looked in disgust and said what the F*** is that. I know that not even a mother could love this face. Imagane swimming and this thing latches on tou you or better yet your swimming nude for some reason and it latches onto something else O_o Either way it was a fun quik trip with a lil bit of excitement. Oh yea and i made him deal with the fish cause i thought it was to gross to touch.