Change is in the air...... or its just me O_o

Well well well..... In less than one week i start my new position at target! Should be fun and a change of scenery. I have been moved to the planogram team. From what i have done from it so far i know they set all the isles and tags and what not. I am sure there is more to it but for now thats what i know. Danielle the ETL pulled me into the office and offered me the position. She said it would help with my development towards being a team lead one of these days. Some time in the near future we will be sitting down and finding out what my strengths are ..... i have already came up with a list. So here ar some of my strengths.... 1. Sweat and weez after peeling an orange. 2. Can pass gas pretty much on command. 3. Always smiling because im chubby and its the only look that works for me. 4. Some what resemble a very hairy jake gyllenhaal 5. Always can tell when im around cause of the gap in my teeth whistling when i walk. Now for my stuff that needs work. 1. Sharting sends me home early almost everyday. 2. If i dont have my contacts or glasses i look crosseyed. 3. Belly jiggles when laughing.... I am always laughing. 4. The air around me is never pleasant. 5. Hands often cramp from having no dexterity.

Now that i have created a numerous amount of run on sentences and bunched up paragraphs i will leave u with a beautiful picure than of what else me!!!!!

Restless

I wrote this poem about me, life and a close friend. My brother and i have recently been working on putting it into music. We have the first paragraph done and still need to work on the rest. He plays the guitar and sings to it and I just sing to it because i have no dexterity aka ogre hands! So it may not be perfect but it came from the heart but i think that is what is best when writing.

restless at night you wander my mind
I wonder what your doing and where you've been
I made a choice long ago that changed my life
For many years i wandered alone
With out you my dear friend.

Never paid much attention to anyone but myself
I had to become a man before i ventured to anything else
So i searched through my soul dug to depths of things i didnt want to let go.
I found the man i am supposed to be. Following the foot steps that my grandfather laid before me.

Enduring pain is what i've done. Growing to new strengths of understanding, why things are not the way that it once was.

I watch you struggle, wish i could do more.
I'll be here for you, you wont lose that again.
I was once so vain but i'll make it right this time.
I'll be a better friend than i ever was before.

Good bye My beautiful hair

This last month i came to the realization that i am balding. Balding very very fast. Not in the back or the middle of my head. Yes right up front i have what they call widows peaks! Thats all i though but i also purchased a web cam to talk to my sister and her family and some friends. I bent over in the web cam and saw the top of my head and nearly crapped my pants... i may have i dunno. The hairdo i had going on is what i like to call the Island its where u have just a patch of hair in the front. My step father sports this look and you know as much as i like him i dont want to sport his look.

On top of this i am graying very very fast as well. I tried for weeks to get my mother to tell me i was balding all i could get out of her was, well there is more on this side than the other. My friends had no problem telling me i was balding. After seeing my hair in the web cam i decided to get rid of what i was losing and move on with life. Almost 25 and going through a mid life crisis ha ha but i have no money so i will not be buying a very nice car. So now i hope i can get enough money to pay for a gym and start juicing and hopefully end up looking like Vin Diesel or Jason Statham. Because they sport the baldness and look good doing it. So for my hair that i used to love so much good bye! So enjoy the pictures of me with my new look cause this is what i will look like forever!

To the new and unknown...

Well it has been a bit since my last post so figured id write a lil bit. Now three months into the new year and i still have what i think is a great attitude. Besides my tons of thousands of debt. I am very stoked for summer, i am jumping out of my skin for it and this weather keeps teasing me. So nice one day snow is melting and the next day 8 inches of snow.

I am going to keep very busy this summer and going to try and live it up to the fullest. I am planning on being out almost everyday wether it be my favorite thing to do fishing, or hiking, camping, going out to the cabin to boat and have fun or to hungry horse to enjoy all the stuff they have out there. Possibly try to travel and see a few friends. I always tried to grow up really fast and settle down. Now i am just taking time for me and going to live it how i want to live it. Despite all that is going on in the world and how much stuff i have been through i want the most that this live has to offer.

Every day my family becomes more and more important to me. I love them all so much and am so proud of every last one of them. The more i think of who i want to be the more i think of my grandpa. This year will be 5 years that he has been gone. Even though he is not here i feel him every time i think of him. He showed me what it was to work hard and be honest and respectful of others. I watched my grandfather for so many years and never knew how much he meant to me and how much he tought me from a young age. I believe he left those foot steps for all of us to walk in. Every day i try my best to become the person i want to be. I want to make him proud and my family proud.

I know britt will tell me not to write stuff like this cause it makes her cry lol i just have that affect. But my family is my world and wouldnt be who i am and where i am with out them so thanks for always sticking by me and helping me through the rough times.