More than just a game

Football is something i hold dear to my heart. Alot of people see it nothing more than just a bunch of over hyped meat heads beating on each other. Sure thats probably one of the funnest things about the game. But there is so much more to it, The pagentry that surrounds the game. The time and dedication all the preperation that goes into it. The art of the plays and the Intelligence it takes to memorize the play book from front to back, And how to read coverages. And last but not least the commrodarie, passion and brotherhood of being a football player, past and present.

I can remember nearly every single play of every single game that i was apart of. The big hits, huge runs, and the mistakes. I can visualize what i did wrong on a play and what i could have done to not let it happen again. I remember before my first high school game coach Ernest King asked me in pre- game warm ups ... are you ready? I told him i had been ready for this my whole life. All i ever wanted to do growing up was play in the NFL but than again who hadnt when they were just a boy running around in the back yard, pretending they were the great Emmitt Smith, Dan Marino and the list could go on and on. Some of the greatest things i love about football is the sound of the cleats on the pavement, The lights and the National Anthem before a game. The nerves that were in your stomech hours before a game. By games end you got to see what all your hard work was for and why you play that game you love.

Football has brought a great deal of passion to me and my life. Football isn't just a game its a stepping stone to prepare you for life. It helps you build character. It helps you for taking extreme critiquing about your every move. It helps you learn how to work as a team and how to fight for something you want and be passionate about it. Anyone who has ever strapped on a helmet can understand how it helped them shape them into who they are.

Life is full of ups and downs. Some times you will make a big play and score a touchdown or you can get a turn over and change the pace of your life and take control of whats right in front of you. If you are passionate about something and believe in it you can achieve anything. You can be down on in the trenches in the pouring rain but if you put your heart into it and give it 110% no matter what the outcome is you can say i tried my best and laid it all out there on the field.

There were many times when i wanted to quit football. But my dad would always push me and i hated it. But after a long nights talk the next practice i would go out and tear up people on the field and gain my confidence again. I will never say that i did not need that push, because sometimes in life thats exactly what we need is to have a fire lit under our ass. The great game of football has tought me so much about myself and how to work hard for everything i have. How to be passionate about things that i care about and to always dream big. This life is to short to live with a loss from last week its in the past now its time to prepare for the next big thing that we have infront of us. #44

One Year

Well figure i better get to this now or i wont get to it at all. June 16th 2009 wont mean alot to alot of people. But for me its a anniversary, It marks one year that i made the choice to sell all my belongings and load a suit case with my clothes and take a plane to live in Montana. This was one of the easiest decisions i ever made in my life. I was depressed one year ago. Very depressed a very angry and bitter person about life and what it had dealt me. I was doing things i should not be doing and hanging with people who i should not have been.

I did not want to be angry anymore I wanted to forgive the ones who had done me wrong i wanted to change my life. I had goals for myself that would never be obtainable in the position i had put myself in. I had a list of things i wanted to do. I wanted to move to the country, I wanted to start over and move closer to my roots i wanted to shoot for my dreams that i had always wanted and that i was letting slip away. My dad used to have a few sayings he said over and over to his football players and well of course me. He would always say "If you believe it you can achieve it" and "If you think you can you can, If you think you cant your RIGHT" For the first time in my life i wanted to do something for me and find myself. I knew i could and i knew exactly how to do it and what i wanted.

I can say that i have found myself. I can also say i have never been happier. I have also become a man. I did it on my own terms and had the people around me to help me achieve what i wanted over the last year. They listened to me and my feelings and gave me guidance and ideas. And i am better for it. When i moved here i also made a vow to myself i would be single for one year... Accomplished! I also wrote off sex for one year.... Accomplished! To be honest i thought both of those would be hard and ended up being pretty easy. It helped me grow in ways that i cant explain but it helped me with my self confidence. It also helped me gain my pride back and that i set out to do something and accomplished it. I wanted to move up in target my first job in montana since moving here. I also accomplished that sure i didnt get the first promotion i went for but I did move up and have more opportunities in the future.

Over the last year i can see how much i have grown. How much i have matured and how i have became a better man and have a good head on my shoulders. I still have more goals and dreams for the future. I believe that if you set your mind to having a positive attitude you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. I have tried to be nothing more than positive this last year and it has done me wonders. I try to look at every misfortune as an opportunity to bring me strength and learn from the expirience. Some of the goals i have for the future are to pay off my debts which i have recently been working really hard on. In the next five years i would like to get married and start a family. I know what i do today can make a better life for my family in the future. Having a family has been a dream of mine since i was just a child. I would like to continue to work hard and move my way up the corporate ladder at Target. I know to go as high as i can there i will need a degree. Which is something i may persue in the future. I would also like to possibly try stand up comedy. Cause i mean who else walks around with the whistling smile and the smile farts other than this guy.

The future is unwritten and I look forward to the experiences that will let me fill in those pages. I have a new attitude about life. I love it! I love my family and my true friends. I have done it and you guys all helped me out along the way. I really could not have done it with out you guys. This is the only life you get and a year ago i decided i wanted to live a great one. And that is what i am going to do. Life is to short to dwell on the past. I have learned to persever and become a stronger person. With out any of the experiences i have gone through i would not be who i am today. I may say my misfortunes but in reality they are opportunities, And for that i am a better person. So to those who will listen live this life to the fullest. Cause we only get this one shot. I will end this on a quote that i live my life by. I found it right after i moved to Montana. "Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today" James Dean