6 Years

Its been six years since you passed away, Went back home to be with family and loved ones that we have lost along the way. Not a day goes by that i dont think of your name. I can feel you all around. Life hasnt been the same since you went away. We all keep growing and striving for better things. It makes things easier when i know your there helping push us through another day.

Hard to believe its been this long since i have heard that laugh. Been called shit for brains or pecker neck, how i long for those days. The love and strength you exuded will never leave the air. I miss the days walking into the house, you holding you coffee and a funny little grin on your mouth. Hugging you so dear wish i could have never let go, Wish i had a video camera every time that you were near.

For grandpa your my hero, Its hard to hold back tears of the endless love that is still so clear. I walk every day with my head held high knowing that i am trying to be like you with every stride. You helped me in so many ways within this life even after you passed i still learn from lessons that you taught me when i was just a young man. I pray one day we will be back together and till that day you will live in all of our hearts forever.

Love ya gramps,

-Garrett-

Boy Howdy!

Well this again will be like another recap haha. Lets see since the new year i moved in with my brother his buddy dan so that makes three bachelors in one place. We all know what that means... Lots of ass, balls, and smells. But normally leaves for an entertaining evening on most nights. We have one dog named Willy.. he has been expensive and chewed up a few things of mine. For some reason he had it out for me when he first got here but i think we are doing better now. Lets see what can i tell ya about Dan? Dan is a good guy, the end! Just kidding Dan is a joke maker a drooper and the editor of our films and the chef of the house and the lonesome moonwalker that we have in Kila, Montana.

We all know chris my baby bro, the pain in the ass Lag screamer haha jk well about the pain in the ass he really is a lag screamer. (yes gaming term for those who dont know) He recently invented the bouncing bandalier and no you do not want to see this it is disturbing. I invented the bandalier and it was bad than now add a bounce and its a deadly combo. He also snores so no its not just cause i have a lil more meat on my bones it runs in these genes!

And now to me well what can i say im the big sexy the elly in smelly the ug in ugly ... wait WTF im writing about me. I am sure you all know me well enough that i am generally the one starting the stupid shit that might happen that involves skin. Cause for some reason i am comfy in my fat suit. But we are just having fun gaming it up and working. Its been fun and look forward to more fun and exciting events that may transpire on tape. Now get your gameface on!

Montana Ice Fishing

Howdy my fellow followers! Its been awhile since i last posted anything so figured i would get something up here. Recently had a day off on last friday and Casey, Horelick and I decided to go out to MCgregor and do some good ol fashion ice fishing. Well i guess you could say not so ol fashioned. Here is why....

Horelick bought a underwater panning camera. It was pretty cool seeing all the fish come up and mess with ur jig and what not. But the one that i actually caught was in to deep of water and we did not have the camera set up lol. I was actually tired of not having any bites so i told casey i think i may actually switch it up. Which i never do i usually stick to what has worked for me in the past so i am prepping the other jig and get it all ready. I than start to real up and i get about 4 or 5 reels in so im probably sitting at about 75 ft. of water right now and BOOM!!!! My hand slips off the real and casey is looking at me like you have got to be Fu**ing kidding me. ( he may have actually said it lol) and takes a minute or two to bring him up.He shot off twice back under the ice which you should not let happen cause it can but the line with the bottom of the ice.

Horlick did his usual and made fun of me lol He is just jealous cause i always out fish him. Going to a derby with casey and horelick and lots of others from feb 19-21 so should be good times. Oh yea the ice was about 4-6 inches thick and was kind of nuts walking and u could see feel and hear it crack right under ur feet. Well till next time stay classy san diego!

Crazy Few Months

Its been awhile since my last post so i guess i better update this and let everyone know how its going. Crazy how life sometimes like it goes by so slow but when you look back at it just cruises right on by. So Sometime in October i moved into Kalispell and now live with my sister and Casey. Its been great and i really appreciate them for wanting me to be here and all the fun we have. I think it works cause we are all so close and have so much fun together.

Work has been nuts i was getting promoted than not and back and forth lol my bro got promoted so im happy for that. Hopefully May will roll around and i can go do the forest thing. Work has been nuts with all the holiday shoppers. Black friday is always crazy and did all my holiday shopping under 150 bucks so im pretty stoked about that!

Looking forward to lots of ice fishing lots of gaming and hopefully snowmobiling this winter if we can get em fixed. I have not been myself think just do to stress and the time of year it seems to bring the stress with it for some reason lol. But that is life and just got to roll with the punches. But just figured i would give a quik update cause i must go to bed tomorrow is the first day of ice fishing Do Work!

Recap!

Well it has been a very busy couple months and nearly two months since i last blogged. Seems like life can just take over sometimes and you dont have time for the little things that you once did. September was crazy and felt very Hectic. I was moved to cash office at target and had been training in that new position along with new roles and responsibilities with in the store. It was a little unnerving at first but after i got a grasp of the new skill i was learning i feel confident and not to worried anymore. Just one more step to making myself more valuable to my job.

October well started out rough. My Uncle Chris was killed in a car accident on October 4th. It was very draining and hard to handle. He was one of my two uncles that i really cared for and really knew. I have been having a hard time sleeping cause i think about him so much at night. On the 7th i flew out to Washington State to be the best man in a good friends wedding. Was a nice little ceremony which i think they should be family and friends. It was in Elbe Washington in a little white chapel a historic 100 + year old chapel.

After the wedding i went and stayed with my dad and his wife. It was really good to see them i really enjoyed it. We went to the high school football game and my dad is a coach so i was on the sidelines. It brought back a ton of memories from as far back as i can remember. Helping my dad with what he needed to do and just watching and feeling the joy of football but also had so many other feelings. I dont think i could have asked for a better trip the football game was perfect and i really needed it. Was so good to be back on the field and around that atmosphere. Was so amazing being out there with my dad i dont think i can tell you really how i felt. But it was amazing and i loved it. Its the little moments in life that all come back and connect that matter.

All in all this is my life and i am living it to the best of my abilities. I find each day i love my family more and more everyday. I dont know what i would do with out them. I truly have started to appreciate the meaning of family. I have had a strong feeling in my life that has me to start persuing a stronger relationship with god. I finally feel like i am at a point in my life where i know i need him and want him in my life. So when my sis moves up this weekend i will hopefully be able to start going to church with them. But just loving life!

Remembering Grandma Abney

Well today marks the six year anniversary of my grandmas passing. I thought it would be good to remember her or talk about her since she has been on my mind. Grandma Abney well what can i say? She was a tiny women who gave birth to my aunt, my father and uncle. She left this world to and returned to heaven on August 18th 2003, brittany's b-day. Sorry for britt bad things always happen on her b-day but they will get better.

She was an amazing women, she was very strong willed and could be very stubborn but you would have to be if you knew my grandpa. Growing up i never really felt close to my dad's parents but they were always around i guess i felt that way because we did not get the materialistic thing from them that you want as a kid. Growing up and seeing how things were and what i did and what i could have done differently come at the speed of light. I seem to think about everything now days and try to better myself from these expiriences. Tonight i was thinking about her. And what we had been through together and as a family.

In my teens in highschool i lived with her, Well my sister Brittany and I. I will be the first to tell you i was a pain in the ass. I can see myself as a unapprciative punk teenager and know that i was not easy to deal with. I remember being so angry that she made me go to school on several occasions when i was sick and puking all night. But i realize now it was because she was trying to get me to toughen up and be the man that she wanted me to be. The pain or sickness was nothing remotely close to what she had endured or was enduring at that time. She was very very sick and i was so angry about everything in life. If i could tell her today i would tell her thanks. She played a big part in bringing me up even though i did not see it at the time. She took me to church kept food on the table and made sure i was taken care of all just because i wanted to play football in washington.

She sacraficed alot for me and over the years that has become clearer. I wish i would have appreciated it more than as i do now. But i guess thats all in part of growing up and becoming a man. I dont ever really remember or recall her ever saying i love you to me as a kid. I am sure she did but i never paid attention to that stuff like i do now. I remember her playing piano for my dad in the "White Room" and i always enjoyed that they would sing and she played it so beautifully. She was very musically talented. And was an amazing cook.

I was not there for her funeral but i did get to see her before she passed. We had a family reunion for her like she always wanted. I really think we need to have one again in her honor. Family is important and Family was a huge importance to her. I remember seeing her on that bed and my dad says Garrett is here... and she started to cry. It was the first time i had really seen her show any emotion and it made my heart sink. I wished on my life that i could have done something for her but it was just her time to leave us. I held her hand and she said she was proud of me. I remember telling her i love her for what i think was probably my first time and giving her a kiss on the forehead. I watched the tears stream down her face. I never showed it much when i was lil or when i was a teenager but i loved that women. She was family and had done so much for me and it was so hard to see her in that state.

I remember living in utah and finding out she was sick and going to my room and crying and praying for her to live a long life that we needed her. And she lived for many years after that. I feel like that prayer was answered but at that time it was her place to go back and be with our father in heaven. I wish she could be around to see me have kids and to see me grow as a man. But i know she is watching down on me from heaven. The people i have lost close to me i still feel stronger and stronger everyday like they are helping me push and pave my way to becoming the man that i need to be. Grandma was a beautiful loving women and i miss her so much and wish i could tell her thank you for everything.

I just want to say that every passing day i appreciate my family more and more.... Its amazing how important family is cause its the only real thing you have in this life. Dont hide the feelings let your family know you love them because everyone deserves to hear that. My family is all over the place but plays a very pivotal part in my life even if we dont get to see or talk as much as we should or need to. I love you grandma, you will live forever in all our hearts and memories.

25 years

On August 6th 1984 at 10:31 p.m. Is when i physically started changing lives here on earth! And i have not looked back since been doing work since i was just a lil chap running around in aqua socks, parachute pants and a mullet. Simply because thats how i roll. Just kidding! Twenty five years i have been living this life and every passing day i become even more greatful for the next. This life could end at any moment and if that were to ever happen i want to go out with people having a smile on there face.

I was blessed with a great family sure it has not been perfect not even close but its my family and thats why its so special. I was blessed with a loving mother and father. Two blood sisters and a blood brother. And two half sisters. I have had amazing grandparents and so many great memories. From all of these people i have learned varoius things about life and just morals and what not over the years. A few things i believe in and pride myself on is working hard, always being respectful, always be honest... and so on.

When i moved to montana June 16th 2008 i had no clue what i was doing. Nor did i really even care. But when i sat and thought about what i was doing i realized i was looking for me and that is exactly what i have done. I first had to forgive the people and things that made my teenage and more recent years a living hell. I had so many feelings to try and fish out and i slowly did, instead of looking at them negatively i looked at them in a positive light and tried to figure out what i could have done different and learn from it. It really helped and i feel like over the last year i have done as much as possible to move on to a life that i have always dreamed of.

I believe you cant let your past determine your future. I know that my past will only make me stronger and will never hold me back again from the things that i desire most. I am in such a great place and could not be happier with the love and support i have always recieved from my family w/o them i truly would not be who i am today. I have made a few goals for the future and those will come in time. For now I am 25 and loving life. I know there will be more stuggles along the way. I also know i will be learning till the day i die. And i hope i can remember the next 25 as well as i can the last 25. This is the next chapter in my life....